That’s not me. 
I’m just hidden in this body.

Ros has finally found Eddy, the girlfriend they’ve always wanted. But Ros can’t tell her the truth: that Ros is trans, and wants to live in a male body. 

After a party Ros’s classmates “discover” they are a lesbian – but the inaccurate label is hurtful. 

Ros knows only one thing will make them happy. But telling the world a truth you’ve hidden all your life is scary. Maybe it would be easier to live a lie? The homophobic comments are already bad enough. 

And if the truth comes out – what is Ros’s next move? And what will happen when Eddy finds out? 

Warning: Self-Harm

"A book that will be important to many young readers." – Claire Hennessy, The Irish Times

"This is an important book not just for young adults, but also for any adult wishing to understand what modern teenage life can be like." – Tales for Tadpoles, Sunday Times Magazine (The Best Irish Children's Books Bookseller Christmas recommendations.)

"An unflinching yet hopeful portrayal of experiences of gender dysphoria and coming out." – Publishers Weekly
 

"A timely reminder that we need to truly look and learn if we are to understand."  – Armadillo Magazine

"Compassionate and well written, this is a story of self-discovery and acceptance that resonates widely." – The School Librarian

"This was an alternative read but I felt I lived and breathed every emotion with Ros as the pages turned - hoping that the conclusion would be a good one - a must read!! Chris Ricketts is a truly inspirational writer." – ***** reader review

"Moving. Intense. Unusual. Challenging.
Devoured in a single day.
Aristotle said, ‘Knowing yourself is the beginning of all wisdom.’ This is a book about leaving no stone unturned until you secure understanding and acceptance from the person who matters most. Yourself." – ***** reader review

Chris is a non binary writer who lives in Dalkey, south county Dublin with their long term partner and a feisty little mini Schnauzer called Oti. Being non binary has been a lifelong battle to be seen for the whole person, rather than the outer skin. Chris’s interest in alternative medicine, especially shamanism, has stemmed from a search for modalities that can heal at a deeper level. They are a qualified shamanic practitioner and Reiki Master. Chris has written fiction for adults and an autobiography. However, Chris has worked in education for most of their career and finds writing for the young adult audience a way of using all their experience in the classroom.